As my head is still bobbin from the bands rocking out on the yard this afternoon… I figured I would take those good vibes inside and write a little something about gratitude. I have had such an overwhelming sense of gratitude this whole week. Given the fact that it was Thanksgiving… it is certainly fitting but so far from the way that I envisioned myself feeling when I started this journey earlier this year. There has been something so cleansing about stripping away all of the “things” in my life and I believe by doing so… it has allowed me to focus on the aspects of life that actually matter… at least the aspects that now matter to me. For so long… I had been living with a personal sense of unbelonging… never truly comfortable in the space that I occupied so always obsessed with belief in a superior life that existed just beyond my grasp… a feeling that a better “party” was happening somewhere else. But every once in a while, however, this sensation was punctuated by a visceral, electric sense of presence… Times where I truly felt like I belonged…
Now… I certainly am not saying that I feel like I “belong” where I currently reside but something about my mental space at this moment feels very much like I am at the right party… or at least almost there. I am experiencing genuine relationships with my family and friends… genuine communication and connection with these loved ones… genuine emotion that I am able to experience and express… I just feel so unbelievably lucky and thankful.
Interesting how life throws you curveballs… sends us places we would have never imagined we would be… doing things that we never thought we would do with people that we never anticipated to meet but here we are… growing… learning… experiencing… becoming better versions of the person that we were yesterday.
I hope everyone out there had an amazing Thanksgiving week and was able to connect with family and friends… eat without a worry in the world and cherish every single moment.
Stay Healthy. Stay Active. Stay Present.